2006/09/11

1129 of 2996 - William Lum


William,

I wasn't the same person the day before you died that I am today. That person was less in touch and a lot less angry. Watching 2996 people be murdered with you on the 11th, from out here on the West Coast, was a transformative experience. It filled me with frustration--filled me with dread. I waited for the other shoe to drop, and it never did. Hopefully it never will, but I can't help but feel that not experiencing 9/11 directly has left a shadow in my consciousness.

Though I was assigned your name at random, it seems that there may in fact be some fate in that coincidence. I'm sure that you and I have many differences, but I've learned that we also share some passions. You were a great lover of NYC as I am. I try to visit yearly and every time I do I feel exhilaration, renewed, vibrant--many of the same things that I'm sure you felt. I read how you planned parties for friends and for your family, especially the one at Window's on the World for your mother's 60th birthday. And I too am in the middle of planning such an event...my parent's 50th wedding anniversary.

So I guess what I really want to say here is thanks. Not for what happened that day. It was incomprehensible. Not for what happened after. It was tragic. But for the tributes and glimpses of your life that your family and friends thoughtfully posted for me to find. And perhaps that is what's most important. They remember you. I'll remember you, and we'll all heal a bit.

I discard the dark,
By looking back through your eyes.
Mind clearer...heart light.


Kvatch

17 Comments:

Nice Kvatch and thank you.

I didn't know about this until too late to participate and I'm still at a loss to talk about 9/11 over on granny.

Maybe by later today I can come up with something reasonable.
Nice piece. Thank you, Kvatch. keep rising in dissent, my friend. Keep rising!
Kvatch, that's a wonderful tribute.
Everybody lost something on that day, thank you for reminding us that so many people lost a lot more than we did.
Thanks everyone...you're too kind. I struggled with this because my inclination was to heavily politicize my tribute. The Frogette (as she so often does), kept me on the straight and narrow.
I understand that inclination, and it was hard for me to find something (even though I too found out about this to late)to write about. I picked the site itself and tried to let the picture do as much of the talking as possible. I knew if I opened my mouth to much, well...Thank You for reminding us of the human face in the tradgedy.
It is all about the faces and the lives lost...and somehow if we all keep focused on that ....maybe we can heal...or be good to those around us....Bless you and the Frogette...

[what is blocking many of us from writing is that our grief was exploited by the misleaders...and that hurt as much as the Human Tragedy that we all experienced...]
Beautiful words Kvatch. May we also remember those that worked after the fall of the towers, with little regard for their own safety or health. Over 40,000 people worked at Ground Zero.
Thanks for the tribute, Kvatch. I'll light a candle today for William.
Kvatch,

Your post reminds me of a Jill Knight lyric: "Can we hear with our hearts? Is that window still open?"

This tribute is fitting.

Blog on my friend, blog on all.
I didn't know about this until very late Sunday night, and by then I had already written my posts for Monday. I had written a "What I remember on that day" kind of post, which focused on the 2 biggest questions I have about that day. But I think the hardest part for me would be to not politicize this kind of post either. Our anger and grief takes over and we just feel compelled to make SOME sense of it, so blaming seems to be a natural end result... although I do believe their is plenty of blame to be spread around.
Oh Kvatch...that is a lovely tribute.
I understand that inclination...

Fred, like a good Republican, I want to politicize everything I touch. Good thing the Frogette is around to keep me under control. :-)

E4E, Dusty...thanks so much. And Dusty, that's a great thought. I think that in remembering the victims we often overlook the profound sacrifices of the people who worked to at Ground Zero.

Sothis, WS...I think that mine pales in comparison to the ones his family already wrote for him. More for me, I guess (getting out from under that shadow.)
Tina, I read your post, and it was excellent. Hopefully we'll be able to take steps on the world stage that will allow us to reclaim some of the good will that we had then.

Mary...[blush]...thanks!
You turned a statistic into a personal and emotional tribute. Thanks.
Very nice sir.
Karmyn, Sumo. Thanks...I found this tribute difficult to write but quite cathartic once it was done.

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