1129 of 2996 - William Lum
I wasn't the same person the day before you died that I am today. That person was less in touch and a lot less angry. Watching 2996 people be murdered with you on the 11th, from out here on the West Coast, was a transformative experience. It filled me with frustration--filled me with dread. I waited for the other shoe to drop, and it never did. Hopefully it never will, but I can't help but feel that not experiencing 9/11 directly has left a shadow in my consciousness.
Though I was assigned your name at random, it seems that there may in fact be some fate in that coincidence. I'm sure that you and I have many differences, but I've learned that we also share some passions. You were a great lover of NYC as I am. I try to visit yearly and every time I do I feel exhilaration, renewed, vibrant--many of the same things that I'm sure you felt. I read how you planned parties for friends and for your family, especially the one at Window's on the World for your mother's 60th birthday. And I too am in the middle of planning such an event...my parent's 50th wedding anniversary.
So I guess what I really want to say here is thanks. Not for what happened that day. It was incomprehensible. Not for what happened after. It was tragic. But for the tributes and glimpses of your life that your family and friends thoughtfully posted for me to find. And perhaps that is what's most important. They remember you. I'll remember you, and we'll all heal a bit.
I discard the dark,
By looking back through your eyes.
Mind clearer...heart light.
I didn't know about this until too late to participate and I'm still at a loss to talk about 9/11 over on granny.
Maybe by later today I can come up with something reasonable.
[what is blocking many of us from writing is that our grief was exploited by the misleaders...and that hurt as much as the Human Tragedy that we all experienced...]
Your post reminds me of a Jill Knight lyric: "Can we hear with our hearts? Is that window still open?"
This tribute is fitting.
Blog on my friend, blog on all.
Fred, like a good Republican, I want to politicize everything I touch. Good thing the Frogette is around to keep me under control. :-)
E4E, Dusty...thanks so much. And Dusty, that's a great thought. I think that in remembering the victims we often overlook the profound sacrifices of the people who worked to at Ground Zero.
Sothis, WS...I think that mine pales in comparison to the ones his family already wrote for him. More for me, I guess (getting out from under that shadow.)